10.22.2007

countbrocula

My Monday morning needed a little laughter. Perhaps yours does, too.

10.11.2007

questions

The questions of a junior high student are often more honest that the questions of an adult:
  • How are there spirits but yet they aren't ghosts?
  • Do spirits come out anywhere at anytime?
  • How does a demon make a physical move?
  • I don't understand how we could believe in God even though no one alive has ever seen him.
  • I don't understand how we know so much about God.
  • Why is sexual activity bad before marriage?
  • Can Satan send people to do bad things?
  • Is divorce a sin?
  • How do we really know that the Bible is true?
  • I don't know how things like the burning bush and how Jesus talked. How do I know it is real?
  • How do we know that Jesus is protecting us, we can't see him?
  • How do we know so much about God?
  • Why are spirits bad?
  • Why is divorce wrong?
I don't know if there are answers, or at least easy ones. Everything is complicated anymore.

10.10.2007

through the fields

It wasn't exactly warm.

No.

It was chilly.

There was a breeze,

but

the sun.

It was shining brightly.

We set out:

tennis shoes,

sweatshirts,

shorts.

Walking.

Gravel pathways through the harvested fields,

golden,

browned,

waiting for the winter.

We walked for miles

past the white house,

around the long bend.

We walked into dreams and fears,

finding beauty in the chipped and fading.

Fingers and toes numbed.

The sun,

slumped against a reddening sky.

We walked through the fields.

Together.

Apart.

10.09.2007

maria pilar

I remember distinctly as a child my mother telling someone that my sister was a painter and I was a writer. I was a sensitive child and I took this to mean I was only good at writing. I can't paint. That is my sister's role in the family. When my sister would write something well, as was her habit, deep in the recesses of my unacknowledged thought, I would feel a piece of my identity snatched away from me.

She was the painter. I was the writer.

As a young teenager, I avoided art classes because I feared pencils and paintbrushes. I dropped art class to sing in the choir and learn to blow the French Horn less like a squawking duck. When I was ultimately forced to take an art class, I went to the teacher privately to explain to her that I was not painter, an artist, a sculptor, or anything that required tactile skill.

I was the writer. My sister was the painter.

As an older teenager, living in a country where I didn't know how to ask for a glass of water, I took an art class because my only other alternative was Latin. The thought of translating from one language to another and then to my native was overwhelming enough to propel me into arte with Maria Pilar. Maria Pilar was a small woman that looked at her students directly and told them that they'd gained weight, they were overly flirtatious, or they were smart but they needed work on the social skills. Her demeanor scared me almost as much as my history teacher who asked me how my American fascist friends were doing on a regular basis.

In fear, I worked. Praying Maria Pilar wouldn't discover my lack of skill, I learned to draw, I learned to paint. Water. Brush. Color.

Maria Pilar looked me in the eye and told me my sister and I can both be painters. We can both be writers. And we are.

Thanks to Maria Pilar.