On occasion, I have ever-challenging experience of explaining my job to someone outside of the church. The problem of explaining ministry to an unbeliever is that there is little understanding of purpose. The skepticism in their eyes makes me shift uncomfortably. I can feel myself being pigeonholed into some ill-fitting category, into something that doesn't quite describe my actual faith or my purposes for serving in professional ministry.

As I reflect on these conversations, a common theme has risen up that has nothing to do with my job and everything to with faith. Humanity carries a great load of guilt surrounding their spirituality and how it informs our lives. Regardless of religious affiliation or spiritual conviction, we all suffer at some level Paul's Romans 7:15 frustration with ourselves:
"I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate."
When someone hears another proclaim a redemption from the guilt cycle, they are repelled by the assuredness, the confidence. Christians have failed to communicate humility of Christ and skip straight to the confidence given to them by Christ.

Confidence and guilt are enemies. They repulse one another. Humility seems to be the bridge between. Humility that surpasses guilt in its quality of ingenuousness. Humility that breeds Christ-confidence, not self-confidence.


a view from my window

This is the first real snow we've had this winter. In celebration of the snow, I haven't left my house since Monday night.


beautiful days

The thing about early winter in St. Louis is that it can surprise you. It can be wretchedly cold, icy, and horrid. Or it can be brisk, pleasant, amazing. Like a Wisconsin summer.

On Tuesday, we had the latter. And to celebrate the blessing of sunshine and warm air, we went to Forest Park and took a walk. We also visited the art museum as seen here.

Photo by Megan